Realization
This may seem like a really sad post, and I’m really not trying to be. However, I have realized that I’m not actually happy. Which doesn’t make sense because there really is no reason I should feel this way. Recently, things haven’t been going according to plan at all. Nothing that I have put my mind to gets accomplished. Whether it be school, work or trying to get a grasp onto and keeping a relationship(which really should be the last of my worries, but shit, a nigga does get Lonely). I feel as though I have no one to talk to, because honestly no one can understand me. Some may think I’m overreacting or they may say some shit like “It’s life yo, you’re gonna have ups and downs.” Which I understand, but can something just work right in my favor? Like when I want it to? If I want to do something and I put my mind to it, can I just get the satisfaction of accomplishing it?
There is so much in my head right now and I don’t know how to simplify everything to even my understanding. I’m sick of having people ask me “what’s wrong” and not be able to answer them because I really don’t know what’s wrong. I just know that this is not happiness. Which means it’s the opposite.
